In an unique interview with Dexerto, Tim ‘nawwk’ Jonasson opens up in regards to the time he has spent on Ninjas in Pyjamas’ bench and his psychological well being struggles final yr.
When NIP advised him that Nicolai “dev1ce” Reedtz was being signed, nawwk took the news in stride, despite the fact that it meant that he was about to tread on unsafe floor.
Choices are very restricted within the Counter-Strike scene in the intervening time. The limitations to entry for brand spanking new organizations are appreciable, and lots of the groups which can be concerned within the recreation are nonetheless counting the prices of a worldwide well being disaster. Participant transfers have gotten more and more uncommon, so the highway again to the highest for a participant who has been benched – even for a marquee name like Kenny ‘kennyS’ Schrub – can typically be arduous and lengthy.
It has now been virtually 5 months since nawwk performed his final official match — a 2-0 defeat to Gambit in ESL Professional League Season 13 —, and he nonetheless doesn’t know when he’ll hit the stage once more. Final week, NIP introduced that they’ll entertain mortgage presents for the AWPer in an try to encourage curiosity within the participant.
“Once I obtained benched, I sort of anticipated that it may very well be troublesome to discover a new workforce rapidly resulting from a number of causes,” nawwk advised Dexerto. “The largest motive is that COVID remains to be round, and buyouts are troublesome on this period.”
nawwk joined NIP in January 2020 on the tail finish of a transition interval for the Swedish workforce, who had been parting methods with Counter-Strike legend Patrik ‘f0rest’ Lindberg, the final remaining member of the Ninjas’ iconic 87-0 lineup, which dominated CS:GO in the course of the recreation’s infancy.
We have allowed @nawwkcs to discover mortgage choices for the remainder of the season. Contact me instantly or @GLHF_Agency in case you’re enthusiastic about getting some motivated firepower on board!
— Jonas Gundersen (@jonasgundersen) August 18, 2021
A rising expertise who had proven promise throughout his time with GamerLegion, nawwk had bursts of greatness but in addition sudden collapses whereas with NIP. His erratic type usually got here underneath criticism because the meta dictated that the overwhelming majority of high groups needed to mess around a dependable star AWPer.
Wanting again, nawwk needs he paid nearer consideration to his physique. Final yr, he was out for nearly a month after exhibiting indicators of exhaustion — which he describes as the “worst second” of his time on the workforce. “It led to a medical depart and to some extremely poor performances.”
“I nonetheless really feel like one of many essential causes for not being that constant has been my well being general,” he added.
“Earlier than, I may sit inside for days with out going outdoors for some recent air. I’d simply play on a regular basis and magically suppose that I’d get higher by simply enjoying aimlessly. After some time, you simply hit a wall.
“In my view, it’s a must to be completely satisfied in actual life to have one of the best efficiency in CS. Some persons are most likely not going to agree with me, however that’s high quality. It’s completely different for each individual.
“However I’m not going to sit down right here and simply blame all of it on my well being and say that I’m an ideal participant, as a result of I’m not. Not even shut. There are issues that I can positively enhance within the recreation.
“I’d say that I have to take extra initiative and have extra impression throughout video games. There are some video games that I’ve rewatched and simply thought: ‘What was I doing?’”
nawwk has spent the final 4 months enjoying FPL video games — which he oftentimes streams — to remain in form whereas he waits for his subsequent probability to show his value. He has a brand new routine now and claims to be higher geared up to deal with the challenges that include competing on the highest degree.
“My largest power would most likely be my particular person ability,” he mentioned. “Though my largest downside has been consistency, I nonetheless actually consider in myself to repair that.
One hell of a 1v5 ACE from @nawwkcs
That 4th kill although😳 pic.twitter.com/r6HCDC7hxK
— FPL (@FPLCircuit) May 24, 2021
“One thing that I seen in my final occasion with NIP was that watching that further demo actually helped as a substitute of simply enjoying Deathmatch or pugs.
“Though it’s a must to play so much to maintain that particular person ability up, typically it’s higher to simply get pleasure from a demo earlier than mattress.”
nawwk’s hopes of touchdown a brand new workforce took a success final month when fnatic announced the end of their long history of all-Swedish CS:GO rosters with the signings of British duo Alex ‘ALEX’ McMeekin and William ‘mezii’ Merriman. Switch offers between NIP and fnatic weren’t an unusual occasion previously, however that door seems to be slammed shut now.
Requested if fnatic’s determination has made it tougher for him to discover a new residence, nawwk replied: “In fact.”
He added: “However you additionally must see it from their perspective as a result of there aren’t that many abilities to maintain a Swedish roster in the intervening time. So I respect their determination.”
Because the months roll on, the uncertainty surrounding nawwk’s scenario solely will increase. Many gamers in his scenario have transitioned to VALORANT or, on the very least, entertained the considered kick-starting their profession in Riot Video games’ first-person shooter, however his resolve appears unshaken.
He nonetheless needs to show that he could be a success in Counter-Strike.
“I haven’t actually set a timetable for locating a brand new workforce,” he mentioned.” CS remains to be the sport I’m devoted to and captivated with.
“In the intervening time, VALORANT isn’t fascinating for me. Possibly sooner or later, however I doubt it.”